Novel Bin Chapter 109: Self Reflection
Chapter 109: Self Reflection
And because of this open challenge, the Volstov clan couldn\'t even relocate their clan heir or send him to another city. If they did, they\'d be a laughingstock for generations to come.
But this time, no one would be looking down on him. He had already proven that he could even kill an Intermediate Grandmaster like the Elven clan head. So maybe, even the Peak Grandmaster rank fighters of the clan would get involved because this whole incident would definitely put their pride at stake as well.
At this moment.. Kahn sat inside the hidden warehouse where he had kept Albestros since the whole battle against the nobles started.
"Kahn. I think you should stop." said the old blacksmith as he walked behind Kahn who was looking through the city maps and archives he had found on the Volstov clan. He wanted to use the best plan he could come up with to find the heir and leave out of their headquarters alive.
"Why did you say so? Getting cold feet?" asked Kahn to the Albestros who was standing behind him.
"No. You\'ve done enough for me already. There\'s no need to carry this on." he said.
"You think I can\'t kill the last one?" asked Kahn.
"No, I didn\'t mean that. All I\'m saying is the risk is too much even for someone as strong as you. As much as I\'d love to see that bastard dead after everything you told me about the real truth and why they killed my daughter & son.. I can\'t have you get killed in the process either." said Albestros in a heavy and caring tone.
"Walking in there would be like entering a Dragon\'s lair. It\'s nothing but certain death." he said and put his left hand on Kahn\'s shoulder.
"Don\'t worry about it, I know what I\'m doing. And let me be honest with you. This is no longer about just avenging your daughter and son. I\'m doing it for my own reasons as well." he replied.
"And what are those reasons?" asked the old blacksmith.
Sigh.
Kahn sighed and replied, "A long time ago, I was exactly the opposite to the type of person I am now. Back then, I had control over my fate but I never actually made a change in my life. Not only was I a completely different person back in those times... I was also a complete failure. Someone who never took that first step.. Someone who never fought to better their own life, only using excuses and twisted logic to wallow in self-guilt and misery." he spoke with a solemn expression on his face.
After getting reincarnated.. He had seen that there was so much to life than just self loathing or acting like you were the victim of every wrong thing in the world. He had realized how other people\'s opinion and his personal insecurities mattered very little.
"But now.. I have the power to hold the leash on my fate and live life in a way I see fit. I promised myself that I will not get involved in someone else\'s problems and always be on my own. But after I heard about what happened to your children & how you\'ve been enduring it all since all those years.. It made me realize how wrong I was when I thought it was only me who was suffering the most." said Kahn as he put away the old man\'s hand.
"Doing this.. Just feels right. It\'s like something inside me is telling me that I can\'t look away from this no matter what. That I must do something about it since the current me has the strength to do it. This isn\'t just about your children anymore. I need this.. I need to do this.. Not for anyone else but for myself. Otherwise, I don\'t think I\'ll be able to look at myself in a mirror." said Kahn as he got up and put all the documents in his space ring.
His gaze drifted towards the eastern end of the city and his figure flickered.
Kahn had found something that resonated with him. Because even in this life.. He was still fighting on the battlefield set by God of Darkness.
What did he actually want for himself? He had no clue. He had no true motive even in his new life. He was just another reincarnated person dancing on the palm of those Gods.
Maybe it sounded like he was contradicting his own words.. But Kahn no longer cared. He would finish this task first and then see where it leads him in life.
Because for the first time in his new life.. Kahn felt like being himself.
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[[Author : I\'m receiving complaints about MC becoming a total hypocrite & not an Antihero anymore. First of all, I\'d like to address the elephant in the room.
It hasn\'t even been two months since MC was reincarnated. His family & all the insecurities he had in the past still have a hold over him. He won\'t be able to move past his previous life that easily, it\'ll take him some time.
And although he\'s no longer averse to killing anyone if they stand in his goals, he still has a Bottom Line. He\'s still a human from Earth who was a part of modern civilization and has a sense of Moral Code. He\'d need valid reasons to have a complete transformation in his personality.
Honestly, I even hate to write this in a chapter but please.. Do not mistake an Antihero protagonist for a cold-blooded murderer or a psychopath who kills people for no reason.
He won\'t kill the mother & the children just because he has enmity with the father. Or an innocent bystander just because they were present at the wrong place and at the wrong time. That\'s nothing but a 14 year old kid mentality.
Let\'s see this as a trial for Kahn. He would first need to experience both sides of the coin to make a decision for himself. I want him to see the consequences of being a good guy or helping others as well. That\'s what I had in mind when the plot was written in the storyboard.
I\'m the kind who doesn\'t do character development in just one or two chapters, I\'d rather take ten to twenty chapters for it with logical reasons than just change his personality for the sake of it.
The entire Arc/Volume 1 is just a setup for what\'s to come and how Kahn will evolve as a character in the future arcs.
Sorry for taking your time. But I had to let his out before we carry the further story.
P. S. I truly appreciate all the love and support many fans are giving to this novel in the past couple of days.]]